I’m Still Here
[Verse 1]
I used to be pink and I used to be blue
I used to be carried everywhere by you
My ears stood up and my eyes were bright
You’d hold me close at the end of the night
But the years got long and the colours ran
And one day you left and you never came back again
So here I sit on the cold wet stone
In a city full of people and completely alone
[Pre-Chorus]
The rain don’t know that I’m already broken
The street don’t care for the things left unspoken
But I remember everything
I remember everything
[Chorus]
I’m still here
Propped against the wall where someone left me
I’m still here
In the rain that no one notices at all
I was someone’s whole world once
I was held and I was loved
Now I watch the feet go past me
And I wonder what I was
I’m still here
I’m still here
[Verse 2]
My seams are split and my stuffing shows
The paint on my face comes off when it rains I suppose
But underneath all the wear and the tear
There’s a heart that remembers when someone cared
A little girl maybe, or maybe a boy
Who dragged me through summers and treated me like a joy
I wonder if they ever think of me
Or if memory fades like the colour in my seams
[Pre-Chorus]
The rain don’t know that I’m already broken
The street don’t care for the things left unspoken
But I remember everything
I remember everything
[Chorus]
I’m still here
Propped against the wall where someone left me
I’m still here
In the rain that no one notices at all
I was someone’s whole world once
I was held and I was loved
Now I watch the feet go past me
And I wonder what I was
I’m still here
I’m still here
[Bridge]
Maybe they grew up and moved away
Maybe they looked for me one rainy day
Maybe they cried when they couldn’t find
The patchy little creature they left behind
Or maybe the world just moves too fast
For the things we loved that weren’t meant to last
But I lasted
Didn’t I
I lasted
[Verse 3 – soft, almost a whisper]
The awning drips and the daylight fades
Another night in this cold arcade
But I hold the shape of the arms that held me
And that’s enough
That has to be enough
That’s enough
[Final Chorus – stripped back]
I’m still here
Just a little broken, leaning, waiting
I’m still here
In the rain that no one notices at all
I was someone’s whole world once
I was held and I was loved
And even if nobody sees me
I remember that I was
I’m still here
I’m still here
I’m still here
I Was Never Left Behind
[Verse 1]
I used to be pink and I used to be blue
I used to be carried everywhere by you
My ears stood up and my eyes were bright
You’d hold me close at the end of the night
But the years got long and the colours ran
And one day you were gone and you never came back again
So here I sit on the cold wet stone
In a city full of people and completely alone
[Pre-Chorus]
The rain don’t know that I’m already broken
The street don’t care for the things left unspoken
But I remember everything
I remember everything
[Chorus]
I’m still here
Propped against the wall where someone left me
I’m still here
In the rain that no one notices at all
I was someone’s whole world once
I was held and I was loved
Now I watch the feet go past me
And I wonder what I was
I’m still here
I’m still here
[Verse 2]
My seams are split and my stuffing shows
The paint on my face comes off when it rains I suppose
But underneath all the wear and the tear
There’s a heart that remembers when someone cared
A little girl maybe, carrying me everywhere
Who dragged me through summers without a single care
I wonder if she ever thinks of me
Or if memory fades like the colour in my seams
[Pre-Chorus]
The rain don’t know that I’m already broken
The street don’t care for the things left unspoken
But I remember everything
I remember everything
[Chorus]
I’m still here
Propped against the wall where someone left me
I’m still here
In the rain that no one notices at all
I was someone’s whole world once
I was held and I was loved
Now I watch the feet go past me
And I wonder what I was
I’m still here
I’m still here
[Bridge — the finding]
Then the feet all stop
And a pair of shoes I know
A voice I haven’t heard
Since a long long time ago
She’s crying in the rain
She’s saying oh my god
She’s picking up my pieces
From the cold and broken road
She says I lost you
I never let you go
I’ve been looking everywhere
In every street I know
I lost you
It wasn’t goodbye
Come home with me
Come home with me
It’s time
[Chorus — reborn]
I’m still here
And she found me where the rain was falling
I’m still here
And her arms feel just like home again
I was someone’s whole world once
I was held and I was loved
And she never once forgot me
I was never what I thought I was
I’m still here
I’m still here
[Outro — warm, tender, resolved]
Now I sit in a window with the morning coming through
Still a little patchy, still a little worn and bruised
But her hands are gentle and her room is warm
And she’s sewing back the pieces of my heart
I was never thrown away
I was never left behind
I was lost in the in-between
And she never stopped to find
Now the rain is just the rain
And the cold is just a thing that was
Because I’m home
I’m finally home
I’m home
Every Street Until I Found you
[Verse 1]
Last night I crossed the threshold on my own
First time in my life with just my name on the door
The walls don’t know me yet, the rooms feel cold
Full of all my boxes but it doesn’t feel like more
I know I should feel proud, I know I should feel free
But proud and free feel very far from here
So before the kettle, before anything
I reach for the one box I need
The one that makes this real
I find the box and pull it from the pile
The one I packed with care right at the end
I lift the lid and reach in for a while
And feel around for something like an old old friend
But my hands find nothing
Just the paper, just the dark
I pull the box apart to make sure
But it isn’t there
It isn’t there
It’s gone
[Pre-Chorus]
And I know I’m not a child anymore
And I know it’s just a thing, it’s just a toy
But I carried it for so many years
And every year before I knew the world could disappoint
So I grab my coat
And I don’t even think
I just go
[Chorus]
I’m coming back for you
Through every street and every turning
I’m coming back for you
Because some things you don’t leave behind
You were there for every hard night
Every year I needed something true
And I don’t care how far I have to go
I’m coming back
I’m coming back for you
[Verse 2]
I walk the route the lorry took
Past every corner, every turn
I check the gutters and the doorways
Every place that I can think to search
The rain came down around mid morning
And I haven’t stopped to dry
Just one more street
I keep on telling myself
Just one more street
Just one more try
The morning’s gone, the afternoon is greying
My feet are wet, my hands are cold
And maybe this was stupid
Maybe this is just a thing I have to let go
But then I think of waking up tomorrow
In that empty room without you there
And my feet keep moving
Down one more street
Into the cold
[Chorus]
I’m coming back for you
Through every street and every turning
I’m coming back for you
Because some things you don’t leave behind
You were there for every hard night
Every year I needed something true
And I don’t care how far I have to go
I’m coming back
I’m coming back for you
[Bridge]
And then something catches in the corner of my eye
Something small and coloured, half against a wall
And my feet slow down before my brain knows why
And my heart says don’t you dare, don’t hope at all
I cross the street
I’m barely breathing now
I crouch down in the rain to see your face
And the world just stops
Oh my god
Oh my god
It’s you
It’s really you
I found you
[Final Chorus]
I came back for you
Through every street and every turning
I came back for you
Because some things you don’t leave behind
You were there for every hard night
Every year I needed something true
And I don’t care how far I had to go
I came back
I came back for you
[Outro]
Now we’re home
The kettle’s on and the rain is just the rain
I find a needle, find some thread
And I sew you back together once again
The boxes can wait
The world can wait
There’s just this room and just this light
And you in my lap and me taking care
Like you always took care of me at night
I’m not sure I’m ready
For all that waits outside
But I’ve got you
And that’s enough
That’s enough
We’ll be alright